I'm 23 years old. I have a really hard time talking to women and making a connection with them. It seems like every other guy is able to talk to women and hold conversations with them, but even that is difficult for me. When I see men and women walking alongside one another, laughing and the women caring for the guy, it makes me sad. My whole life, I have been ignored by women and I have never really been able to connect with girls, even though I want that feeling of being acknowledged by somebody.

A part of my inability to connect with women is my aspergers, that makes it harder to talk to people. Another reason is because I have really shitty self-esteem as a result of being rejected by women in my youth. I remember in junior high school being laughed at, being blocked, being called a creep and a weirdo time and time again by women and as a result, i'm afraid that when I talk to girls they will just ignore me and reject me again. So it's hard for me to feel relaxed around women. Another reason is that I feel ugly about myself, so I feel like women flat out ignore me.

Iv'e always wanted a girlfriend but how can you even get a girlfriend if you can't even connect with a girl?