I dont know how to hold a conversation, with new people i can barely speak and stutter a lot, i dont know what to say to new people i meet i dont know what to say to anyone, or what topic to talk about.. So most of my life i have been alone. I dont wanna go on like this. Like what i say in conversation? How do i make others value me?

When i see other people making friends and are having fun or they talk about something i get jealous bc its something i dont have.

How do i make friends? Do i have to be funny for them to value me?

I have spent 3 years chatting to girls and i would always get one words. While you guys would have girls chasing you.

I was close to killing my self a lot of times just bc of me feeling unimportant and uninteresting or my opinions didnt matter or it would make me feel like shit and i would cry bc of it.

I ask where you from? They say US And i just say Cool. I dont know what else to say. And chat ends and i can never make friends. So i will be the shy guy again. Or invisible.