Not sure what I’m doing wrong, ever see that show “man seeking woman”?

Never related to a character more in my life.

I get it it’s a numbers game and you get 99 no’s and 1 yes

but whenever I get just 1 no i fall into a pit of despair that takes me back to my horrendous days in high school and it really fucks my hole day up. I legitimately considered castration pills

Not looking for sympathy or anything there’s just no one else I feel comfortable saying this to.

Don’t want to put my mom though hearing this