I recently posted this elsewhere and didn't really get any advice. I'm not here for you guys to judge me. That's why I'm asking here rather than anywhere else: Apologies for any spelling mistakes as I am on mobile in Amsterdam. Sorry it's quite long. TL;DR: Spent too much on hookers, need to break up with girlfriend. She doesn't know what I've done.

I did one Friday and Saturday morning. Saturday night I met one who was amazing. I tipped heavily and had a great time, had to go back the next night. I spent an hour and a half with her, it was the best experience of my life. So much so that I have arranged to meet her tomorrow before I go home during the day.

Problem I have is my girlfriend doesn't know. We've had our ups and downs but we've always toughed it out. I've never cheated on her and she had never cheated on me (as far as I know). I've thought about cheating a lot recently, but couldn't grow the balls. Problem in relationship are that I don't get enough sex. I thought this was pretty standard for a relationship with a good looking woman.

But then I went to Amsterdam and it was all so easy. I spent €50 on number 1, €60 on number 2. €230 on number 3, and another €330 when I went back to her tonight. Probably spend another €150 on her tomorrow.

I have quite a lot of money saved up. I'm worried I'm going to come back here and blow it all.

I think I'm addicted to sex and prostitutes and don't know what to do with myself.

Update: Monday I saw my favourite hooker again. Paid €250, got nearly 2 hours with her. Was such an experience again that I thought I might catch feelings for her, even though my logical mind tells me I'm fucking retarded. Went saw another prostitute after, paid €50 and it was shit. I'm actually planning on seeing my favourite one again in May.

With my favourite prostitute, it's actually the most intimate I've been with a woman other than my girlfriend (we got together when I was 14, I'm 22 now). I think due to this, I've managed to put her pussy on a pedestal just like I've done with my LTR over the years.

Guys, I think I have some serious issues, how can I catch feelings from spending a few hours with a prostitute?

I know I need to next my girlfriend. I know I need to not go back and see this prostitute. Realistically, I'll probably stay with the girlfriend and cheat on her as it's too much hassle to kick her out (I literally can't get her to leave), as I fucked up suggesting we should move in together 6 months ago. I'll end up seeing the prostitute again which I know is a bad idea.

Do you guys have any real advice?

Edit: I guess I fucked up pretty bad seeing as people think I'm trolling. Not sure what I could use as proof. My bank statement with all the withdrawals, or a photo that I took in Amsterdam? Let me know, so I can prove I'm not trolling.