I have a huge crush on a co-worker for months. She has a boyfriend for years and I developed feelings for her despite that knowledge. I am a loner and somehow I felt (still feel) that she understood me.

After reading TRP, I realized that she has higher SMV and I was just orbiting around her. I was finding happiness in looking at her, talking to her, validating her etc. So I decided it is best to get over her and started avoiding interactions with her.

It has been a month since I started avoiding her. Now I barely maintain eye contact with her. I also try to avoid her in common areas and not give her the food/sweets I bring to work. But lately I have been feeling like I am acting petty and childish. At lease once a day I question myself "Am I mistreating her? She must feel bad that I am avoiding her, should I ask her about it?"

Is it normal at this phase? I have had crushes before but they fade away after I realize that the girl is stupid/not worthy. But this girl is intelligent and has high SMV and sometimes I feel like I am stupider than her.