I just survived sleepless nights, anxieties and self-sabotage. Feels like new, but still can't forget the pain.

(M21) (F21) She's my crush and we're friends 3yrs ago. She suddenly got interested in me, I know that because my friend saw her fb posts mentioning my name that I became attractive, after knowing that, I take the damn RISK.

We've been talking for months. We've shared a lot flirting, talking, secrets and even confessions. And I thought I got her, I thought that she's into me, she even said that she likes me. She sometimes initiate conversations....and then I just found out she's dating another person it was her ex, her first love.

She only choosed me that time because I'm the only one who was there, She just want to feel wanted and I'm the only one fulfilling it that time, but when a better person come, I'm just nothing

I'm done, and I knew this would happen, I saw that coming, I'm not surprised just disappointed. I really thought I'm winning, but then I lost her, but the truth is I never had her.

Lessons Learned: - Love yourself nonstop. - Don't expect early. - Don't be an option. - She is just your favorite so FAR, but soon enough it will fade. - You can't make someone love you. - You can't negotiate attraction. - Following your heart sometimes mean losing your mind

Yes, I found myself again. Cheers 😎✊