Not new to RP philosophy, don't agree with everything, but have been researching for over four years and it HAS helped a lot.

One thing I worry a lot about is demonstrating vulnerability. I'm strong and I'm capable, but I am also internally emotional (I write for a living - it's an asset in that sense).

I've been seeing this girl for the last two months and have positioned myself well in her eyes, which is what I wanted. However I do like her a lot and am moving to Thailand for six months (shipping out at the end of this month) and it's got me feeling pretty shitty.

Last night I got drunk, went to a house party with her, and at the end of the night I was showing a lot of vulnerability. I left her place in a cab - didn't want to show that throughout the night.

This morning I send her a text - I apologize for being a bit childish and let her know the truth. My father, who I haven't spoken to in four years, decided to call me up and reiterate that he hates me, has disowned me, and so on. I don't go into it - just say "I had a chip on my shoulder before I went out last night, wasn't expecting it to get under my skin like it did and this mixed with having to leave soon."

I often run away from situations when my vulnerable, moody self starts shining through, especially when someone has become familiar with the better, stronger aspects of my personality and countenance.

I'm wondering what your thoughts are on demonstrating periodic vulnerability and how you perhaps make up for it in other aspects.