So I have a few problems.

Problem #1: I need to somehow find the discipline to study android programming and researching stocks. Whenever I have free time I never feel like doing it, I'd much rather do anything else.

I want to learn and grow but I just can't find the discipline to do it. This isn't an issue with my passion of bodybuilding. I never waver in training and diet.

Problem #2: Validation seeking from others. I have trouble shutting up and often fuck up while talking. This makes me come off as awkward often times. How do I remain calm and stoic?

Meditation might help with this so please send me anything you feel that is useful regarding meditation.

Also how do you pass the "you're creepy" shit test?