I thought I was doing the right thing, apologising rather than arguing and explaining what I was sorry for. She was amazing at the start and it was great, that was until I noticed I was apologising over everything, begging for her to come back and letting her come back whenever, I gave her no resistance and she disrespected me on the daily, final straw was when I came over and she had a hicky on her neck when we had stopped talking for 1 night.

I thought by saying I’m sorry and not fighting her I thought that would show her I care. I broke up with her and told her how she treated me was fucked up considering I did everything for her when she was in need but when I was wanting her support she ghosted me and went drinking.

In the future how should I change this behaviour? How do I set boundaries so that I can have someone who fights for me and chases me and doesn’t disrespect me? How do I behave when someone disrespects me?

I just can’t do this again it tore my heart out, it was mental torture. I know I have a lot of learning to do.