I'm 17.. I lift and do have a good body and I have a decent job! I'm a scum bag tho. Girls will be attracted to me at first but then I creep them out, guys are intimidated by me because I'm big and totally unbearable to be around so they stay away.I have lost all my friends, girls can't stand me and I really don't know what to do. I use to be high value got girls constantly had a way with words but drug use and stuff has just made me anxious constantly. I am in recovery but I don't see a way to change anything! There's old dick pics from when I was younger (stupid I know) and basically I know I've fucked up, I know how I appear but I don't see a logistical way out. Has anyone got advice at all? I know I'm sounding like a little bitch but I have nothing. I have lost everything! To make it worse I could lose my job that I worked my ass off to get because I badly assaulted someone. I hate what I've became. I'm repulsive! Any advice would be appreciated, I really don't know what to do. I'm a bully and people hate bullies.