My daily thoughts on women are still fairly negative... and it does bother me.

Thoughts of being cheated on in the past, the blatant using I have experience (over and over) and seeing it with other people on a daily basis by women.

I hear awalt stories, I see alwalt stories...

Not yesterday my ex who is a full blown relationship is not getting fucked the way she wants, so decides playing with her pussy on camera with me would help her get off (and it did). As nice as the show was, I fucking cant believe her justification come from the fact that she not getting fucked hard enough, thats is ok to do this.

I see a good looking girl and I immediately hone in to how she abuses her looks to take advantage, marriages that are fucking miserable... fucking baby creators and men stuck in a miserable sitaution for the rest of their lives.

This "mood" or phase what ever you call it, has left me with zero interest of ever perusing an actual relationship. Its also messes with my sex life as I fear knocking them up and the fact I simply dont trust them with my own fucking cum.

I know its fucked up, but with all the manipulations, and awalt examples I find it hard to find the value of a woman.

Does this phase come and go? Does it linger? How did you get past it?