The oneitis gone wrong situation that helped me find TRP is happening again. I'm straight out of high school so naturally I had a couple crushes, one of them I don't talk to anymore, the other is the one that this post is about. I've been close friends with this girl for 4 years but it has been a rocky friendship because we don't see eye to eye on most things. I'm the only person that has ever called her out for her views and also the only one of her friends that has legitimately cut her off because she's said some pretty unreal things. That said, I really like the girl because she is very strong willed, intelligent and virtuous whether they be the virtues we share or not. She's like me, I love me. And I know, or at least I think, that she cares more about me than most people on this Earth because her friends express a lot of surprise when I come up in their conversations. She's also pretty attractive.

So, we're both at a party last Friday evening and while fucking one of her close friends I realize I could be doing something better.. Fucking her. So I tell the girl I was with to get off of me and go get my oneitis, and she comes. I end up spewing all of my feelings out on the table only to find out that she's in an "asexual" phase and she could never feel the same.

I'm truthfully not that sad. Not about to be depressed or sulk over it because I've been through this before. But I'm in the process of cutting this girl off so I need some advice/words of encouragement to help me move forward.