So I have been reading theredpill for a bit but admittedly I hadn't swallowed completely. I had a falling out with some friends and have to move home with my mom and transfer schools and basically start over at 24.

I had a slow start to my college career and wasn't really disciplined for it. Regardless I never had an issue with getting a girl until shortly before I moved back home. I didn't know game or anything nor did I much hit on girls. I was always the one being hit on. I got in a relationship with a good Christian girl and I cheated and I basically went full beta to try and keep her. Fail obviously, and I haven't recovered honestly despite having girls since.

So I started reading the rational male and lifting and I noticed improvements. So I went for a girl.

I failed miserably. I stuttered my way through a convo like a fool but did get her number, only to be met with the "i just got out of a relationship and still have feelings." OK cool. I wasn't happy with it but whatever. Well a couple months later I asked her again. Held my composure and was much more in control.

I asked her to the park and she wasnt resistant but she stated that she already with someone else and would need his permission. Wtf. I held ground and told her that I wasn't interested in that arrangement. Then she stated that I was fun, mysterious and she really wanted to hang out with me and she asked if she asked me to hang out would I accept? I told it depended and that things could change.

......the problem is I work with her at a bs student job. I see her everyday and I can't lie and say I don't struggle with it. Yes. I know it was a mistake but I can't hit rewind. So my question is whats with her saying all that but not hanging out, some beta orbit bs? Secondly how do I handle seeing her everyday? It's usually no more than 5 minutes but still. I want to be angry because she isnt that good looking and is kinda boring and I feel insulted that I was rejected by her considering that ive had better in the past.

I just felt like I was improving and then this happened and I feel like shit about it honestly.