I've been lurking here for a bit and I honestly feel a little guilty about posting this because I am not facing the struggles a lot of you guys are, but I have no one to vent to. I am in my late 30s, single, and never married. I was recently diagnosed with autism which explained a lot about my life. I have difficulty making and maintaining friendships, let alone relationships with women. The relationships I have had have all ended up a toxic mess. I have an ok career, but lately I've been wondering what the hell it's all for? I want a wife and a family, but I doubt I'll ever have one. My biggest fear has always been to die a lonely old man in a nursing home, and I'm seeing it slowly coming true. This isn't the life I wanted and I'm losing hope. Anyways, thanks for listening guys.