Edit: Thanks for feedback on how the post has been formatted, usually i would of done a better job with spacing, but i only got three hours sleep last night and when i wrote this i was not in the best place, so yeah, I'll get it right the next time.

When i first started NoFap a few years ago i started it because i had hit rock bottom in my life and i hoped along with other things that i would get into a good relationship with a woman. I guess now i feel that i was deluded because everywhere i look there are no women only girls playing stupid games who want a boyfriend because they want to be taken care of i.e they want a slave and after events that have taken place in the last few years and my dealings with girls in general i just do not see myself in a relationship at all anymore. After all the shit that i have been put through even the most submissive girl can turn out to be a manipulative cunt and i am just plain sick and tired of seeing girls who think it's their place to tell grown men how to behave or to instruct them when the men didn't ask for their opinion or help in the first place and they do not need it. They seem to just want to control us then dump us when we're of no further use to them anymore. My buddy who i have known for a little over a year who just turned 22 has told me he wants to get the snip because he's tried a few times to start a family but the girls keep leaving and the two he has got pregnant so far (six years apart from the other) have done some fucked up shit to stop him from seeing his child or being involved with it, he is a fucking awesome guy, he has a few screws loose because he's had a fucked up early life (he's survived a few attempts on his life, and yes has seriously almost died from some of them), but he is also cool, open to people, generous when he has little to give and is very empathetic. He bought a cot and did a room for the kid and everything and the mother of his child is being a cunt and screams at him that he's 'not doing anything for the kid' when he is, it's just when he does something she says 'leave me alone' and when he leaves her alone she complains 'you haven't spoken to me for ages, you don't care about me or your child' ridiculous. When i look at he shit he's dealt with in the time i have known him and the woman problems i have had in my life then i just can't help wonder what is the point? Why do people even bother with pro-creating anymore when it's clear that their children's lives are going to either be really easy and be treated like royalty and yet be thought of as being discrimated against (female) or have a life of suffering, being treated like something disposable and be discriminated against, and yet few people realize it because they have to be told it's going on because they are ignorant and can't make up their own minds so they repeat back what the media or the rest of society says. My brother in law has said his daughter will be his little princess and there are a lot of things i wanted to say to that, such as 'do that and she will see you as a cash machine, not a father'. He has a son as well who i am 100% sure thinks 'dad' is a cash machine, but when he's older the sudden change that growing up brings will fuck him up, but there's nothing i can really do because his father is ignorant of things like this and he is weak willed, if his son asks him to buy something he will do it which i think is pathetic. I decided a few weeks back that i was definitely not going to have kids, i thought it because i don't think i would make a very good father which i do still think, but it's also down to what i said earlier about pro-creating seeming pointless at this point if your bringing a child into a world so unfairly against men and so for women just because women are more physically attractive to the eye and women can leave you anytime and you still have to pay them even if you have no access to the child and the child has no father which is bullshit. It bothers me that society is like this and i really am at a point now where i just want to give up on life completely not because women were like my only hope for having a happy life (which to be honest was true for most of my childhood and adolescent life), but because i want to be with a woman, but i refuse to be a slave to her or my feelings that she could easily hurt and manipulate if i love her and let her in