So, I'm turning 40 this year. Up until a few years ago, I didn't care, but in these last 5 years, things have gone to hell.

My best friend of 10 years came out as trans (m2f). I don't care about that, I support them, but it feels like my best friend died. Not only died, but didn't gave a funeral. I've had no closure, and the relationship basically started over, but it's strained. Some of it is because I miss my best guy friend, some of it is because I don't actually know this person, and some of it is that I simply, as a married man, do not talk with other women a lot.

Not only that, but all of my other friends have changed. Divorce, cheating, politics, religion. It's like they picked something and went all out, and it's put a rift in the friend groups. Now, I have no good friends, only a few work friends who are either much older, or much younger, both with their own friend groups.

My child was diagnosed with ADHD, and after learning about it, I'm now getting tested as well. I've been mentally preparing for the outcome either way.

My job turned into a responsibility. I used to care for an intellectually disabled man, but I've since become his guardian, and my 9-5 is now 5 days a week, 24 hours a day.

My wife doesn't seem to support me, or really think about me. I mentioned going back to college and she was indifferent. We've talked about starting a business, but she never made me feel welcome. She actually made me feel more like a punchline. If I tried to talk about my feelings, it always turns out wrong.

I have no support at all, I guess? I have very little family, my friends have become strangers, and I don't feel good about my marriage.

I've been to therapy, and it opened up a lot of my past traumas and helped understand what my issues are. But now that I'm trying to work on myself, my whole life seems to be falling apart.

Is this 40? Because I hate it already.