Hey guys, so I've had depression, anxiety, and at times I can be socially awkward. Obviously I have crap conversations w/ women and I'm one with a few friends who's always looking for social validation. In a way I blame it on my cousin growing up because she would always make fun of me (maybe these were shit tests, who knows...) and criticize the way I would talk and act, yet when I did the same to her she would start denying everything, act coy, yell at me, or would tattle tale to my parents then I would get yelled at. My Dad was beta, and my Mom would yell at me and say some very critical crap as well. In order to fend off the verbal attacks from my cousin I would usually shy away in family functions. Even if I were to speak in front of everyone, I hate the way my mind works but there would always be this impulse that creates fear in me and causes me to look awkward and not get the words out correctly. To this day this impulse controls me in interactions and makes me look awkward. Talking to girls and even people in general has been difficult. I would just like to know if there is a Therapist mainly grounded in Redpill or a mentor I can see to help me get on the right path.