STBXW said she wanted to separate back in March. Long history of alcohol abuse from her and in the end she blamed it all on me. House on market and still both living here as I won’t leave kids and her mother lives with us too. As soon as we separated she started making a LOT more effort with her appearance. Normal I thought. Then she started going out more. Hard to see but fine. Then I find a morning after pill and contraception when she flat refused to use any when we were together. I know she’s seeing at least one guy. Tonight she said she was going out with ‘new work people’. I know she’s not as she documents EVERYTHING she does on socials but never a peep on some nights- just like now. I’m lying at home with my boys in bed as my heart continues to break knowing what she’s doing and I have to just watch her do it. No respect despite all our years together. How do people deal with this kind of thing? 6 months and it’s honestly just a living hell.