Hey everyone, two months into reading the red pill material here. I would consider myself purple pill (want to be red pill and I understand it, yet am still shaking off my blue pill habits, which is why I'm actually making this post).

Brief synopsis of my current life/relationships: I've seen my share of Blue Pill moments (all through high school, friend zoned every time, let girls walk over me, thought being nice would work, backbone only when backed into a corner, etc.). I've also seen times when I was naturally Red Pill (aloof, got the girl, escalated like a boss, told the girl off and had her coming back for more, willing to walk away and not think twice, assertive alpha male, etc. ).

I have a serious desire to be fully Red Pill and have the power to get women. I have been studying RP almost every day and am starting to see it implementing itself automatically into my life. This is great, and I am starting to get more noticed by women, as well as seeing clear sexual advances from women onto me.

However, now that I am getting this attention, my self is naturally reverting back into BP habits/thoughts. For example, talking to this chick on tinder, got her number, set up a date with her for tomorrow night, and I'm ready for it (totally RP up until this point), but in my mind the things I am thinking about the date are typical BP thoughts. My thoughts are basically 'Man I hope I don't screw it up', 'What should I say?', 'Should I wear that shirt?', 'Sterotypical I.care.too.much.bullshit kinda thoughts'. You get the point.

I realized these thoughts are wrong and will only hold me back. How can I get rid of these thoughts? What kind of mindset should I be adapting? Anyone else experience this and overcome it?

TL;DR: Consider myself on my way to red pill integration; still have blue pill thoughts. How can I push forward to red pill status completely?