In my 22 years I have never had a chick I am that attracted to hit on me and make it that obvious. Prior to this, if someone had me literally build a girlfriend or a wife in my mind, it basically would have come out to exactly match this chick.

She made it so obvious she wanted me to get her info, or ask her to go out later on. As obvious as you can get without saying the words. I knew what was happening. But I couldn’t get the fucking balls to spit the words out. Just one sentence, and I knew she was going to say yes. I regressed back into the pussy scared mindset I thought I had outgrown. I ignored what I was seeing and hearing with my ears and filled my brain with self doubt. It’s almost like my subconscious was telling me, “this doesn’t happen to you, this chick cannot be interested in you”. She made it so clear that it’s almost like I rejected her by not asking for her number.

I get it. It’s simpy to be this invested or this regretful about some random girl I talked to for 15 min. But I’ve never seriously dated anyone, I’ve hooked up with a few girls but I only did it just to do it. I didn’t even really like them or find them that attractive. It’s a bit more difficult to just play it off in my head, no big deal, from that lense.

Anyways, yeah, fuck