About two months ago I broke up with my LTR of nearly 1.5yrs. I have TRP to thank for how I handled a lot of that relationship, from telling her "hell no" to kids and marriage, employing dread game, ability to walk away, telling her what to do, etc. But it's over, I walked away (she's already tried to re-enter but I put my foot down on her hard).

Now I'm at that weird stage where abundant sex is no longer a phone call away, I don't have any plates, I've gone out a few times, pulled an HB7 number but with no success. I've gone online (Tinder, OKCupid), short profile, funny, a couple of pretty decent pictures but I'll admit I didn't get them assessed by an outside perspective. Sent out ~200 messages, ~30% response rate but again really got nothing out of it. I had turned off notifications, but instead I caught myself constantly checking for new messages.

It became obvious to me that I was needing the ego boost and getting validation from new messages. Ditched both. I only got one number, which didn't even get a response text. Fuck it.

So here is where I'm at now. Now that I've ditched the online stuff, I found myself going through old texts, FB messages, etc. looking at old flames, messaging, blah blah blah. Again, to me it seems like attention seeking desperation, and after a late night message to an old FWB that read "Feeling lonely lol" I had to literally stop in my tracks and say to myself "what the fuck that is the lamest most desperate unmanly message to send, who the fuck would want to fuck you with a message like that". I've ceased all messaging, but I'm still finding myself looking at old flames and tempted to try and contact.

Here's what I'm actively doing to try and focus elsewhere. I just bumped my gym time from 3x to 4x a week, and I'm hitting it harder when I'm there. I am going out, but I graduate this semester and I've been doing shit-all for school work. I'm working two jobs, but I feel like it's half-assed right now and I'm finding it hard to concentrate on them. I'm finally reading Book of Pook, and I'm surprised I haven't read it earlier. I'm pretty familiar with the TRP sidebar material.

But I still feel like there's something glaringly obvious that I'm missing. I haven't gone monk mode, I'm not sure if it will help, but if someone has gone through something similar to this and it helped them, then I'm open to it. I could try going out more and just pushing through this, just not sure how I justify that while I'm already behind on school and work.

Any thoughts, advice, similar stories, would be much appreciated.

tl;dr Going through a funk after LTR, exhibiting attention seeking desperate behavior