I used to be that silent asshole rebel who used to do nothing. People who were on the top almost always ignored me and I still looked down on people. Im NOTHING and I know it but for some reason that doesnt stop me from judging people.

Im that guy who could have made it, but is regretting he wasted all of his college in stupid shit. I now want to go 4 years back, god I could easily be at the top but I ended up screwing myself! There are NO people with me right now with the same ambitions as me right now. None. I pitched a startup idea and I was fucking shamed for it, made fun of by my friends. No one shares either the vision or the will to have a higher goal, job is all people want and what theyre looking for. The toppers? Groups have already been formed and Ive ended up screwing myself badly.

What do I do now? I feel like theres no hope.