So after my previous two posts I have started lifting. Today was day 1. Since I am already 30 and still had have tremendous AA I decided that I should change something on Halloween.

I decided to go for a pub crawl with a group. I met a Indian girl there. She was with this stupid british indian dude who was dressed as some gay shit character. I talked with her but immediately sensed that she was not interested in me. Fast forward two hours I met this fat girl. Now, I don't like fat girls but I thought why not practice my game ? I got her number. But, later I found out she ws digging another good looking dude. I dropped my interest from her and started talking with her ugly friend.

We went to another bar and I was talking to this black ugly girl a little bit. I was getting to know people and got to know this awesome couple who were dressed some characters from game of thrones. When I was talking to white girl this ugly black girl , friend of fattie, literally was throwing herself at me. I made some casual jokes and she seemed to laugh. I moved a little and she moved closed to me.

Then I suggested that what you doing tonight and we should go and get drinks at other bar. Boom --

She said loudly , "YOU ARE NOT MY TYPE "
So loudly that everyone in the group looked at me. She then started chatting with a fat beta nerd. I stood there embarrassed and told her after 5 min that we all go for some type and sometimes a type lower than us. Then I left.

Later, a girl called me a techie piece of shit based on my shades I was wearing. I had simply asked her what you are supposed to be ?

I woke up this morning feeling very bad. Never woke up so early in last 6 months.

Later I had these thoughts

  • Racial bias is real. As a Indian guy there are very very small subset of girls who might talk or date me.

  • I need to become emotionally intelligent while gaining muscles. If I have to achieve something in life I can not let what other think affect me.