I'm a beta loser. I've been thinking "if only I was a girl" for years.

If I was a girl, at last I could have sex. At last I could have friends. I'm not a great man. I'm a loser. If I was a girl, at last I could have it easy in life. I read somewhere (in the sidebar maybe) that men can be more successful than women but that they can also fall even more. The thing is, I'm not succesful so this argument doesn't make me happy that I'm a man and not a woman. I know, there is nothing to do about it but I would like to know what to say to this little voice which blames every damn problem in my life upon my gender. To shut it up.

I began improving slowly and painfully (going to the gym mainly). I have so much unhealthy habits (video games, jerking off to porn 3+ a day..). It would help to have at least one valid reason why I'm lucky to be a man and not a woman.

I know, lame question, lame topic. I am lame. I'm a fucking loser.