So here is my story.

Sorry for the clickbait title. I genuinely wanted advice from as many people in this subreddit as possible.

I am a short, skinny guy (I’ve gained about 7 kg but I’m still underweight) and I struggle with women. To give some background, I’m not a virgin. I had a sexual relationship with a married woman (a MILF) who lived next to me. It lasted for around one and a half years, and I truly enjoyed it. Over time, things became toxic because I started developing feelings for her and began caring too much. Eventually, she left me—which I knew would happen, since she had already cheated on her husband with me. It’s been three years, and I still haven’t been able to forget her. Because of this, I feel like I need to change myself. I often come across as desperate. I’ve also developed the belief that sex isn’t easily available—that girls don’t just give it, and you have to struggle a lot to get it. Now I’m working a corporate job where there are many women. When I walk around the campus, I often stare at some girls but never approach them. Later, I regret not approaching, and it really hurts me. I somehow managed to approach a colleague and even told one girl that I liked her, but she said she only wanted to be friends. When I stop talking to her, she asks what’s wrong, but when I do talk, she says it’s too much. I’m also aware that, in the hope of getting sex, I end up giving validation to her and to other girls who aren’t even my type. I sometimes get phone numbers, but then I end up getting ghosted, which seriously damages my confidence. This has made me think that maybe I’m not a person who can attract girls in his life. I really want to change this. Please suggest what I should do. Also, I wanted to add i gets postive signal from neighbour milf but because of past I am afraid to fuck her.

(Used chatgpt)