So bear with me here im on mobile and english is my second language. My father left home when i was 2, i was basicaly raised by maternal grandparents. My mother was never present i used to ser her only weekends or 2 3 days max. Granpa was drunk everyday, drank at least a bottle of vodka everyday. He used to beat my grandmother so much she locked me on a room so he could not get to me. Still hardest working man ive ever met, worked till 70+ raised family of 5 and gave very good life for them. When i was around 10 beatings got so hardcore i was forced to move with my mom. She was still riding the CC hard during her 30's never went home after work, and left me alone all day. She used to go home with a diferent man every week, and liked to fuck them with the door open or put me in the room ( several ocasions ). I got obese really fast, diagnosed with add and extreme anxiety. 110kg at 18 years old. My mother found her beta Bucks a few years ago, he enables her alcoholism, she is on the highway to my grandfather steps, shes psicothic and delirious went to afew psych and got hardcore meds which she mixes with alcohol. I discovered BJJ at 20 and lost 30kg gained confidence, made some friends and moved on with my life. Im 23 now unenployed for 1 year, only have my highschool degree, but still living with her, she just told me to gtfo her house, 11pm. I have no family, no father, no brothers, grand parents dead, no money at all, all i have is 2 pair of jeans 2 t shirts my id and work papers, im on the street right now and nowhere to go. What do i do, i Live in Brasil, no shelters for man, only women, there are no fucking jobs on thos crisis ive been trying like 20 resumes a day. Theres not even a bridge to jump on this shithole i Live in, i dont want compassion just a fucking direction, someone please