Been TRP for maybe two months. Had some past experiences with girls, nothing too extraordinary. I'm good looking, a little overweight, did sports and lifting before, have good experience. When I was born, I had only thumb on my left hand and still it's deformed. Other 4 "fingers" look like just tiny balls, something similar to this - http://i.huffpost.com/gen/1539473/thumbs/o-PAIGE-570.jpg?6 , but his hand looks more messed than mine. So, obviously I have some insecurities about it, I have talked about it with many people, that there is nothing I should be insecure about and so on. Deeply I understand that, but yet I can't stop hiding my hand in public. I feel comfortable with my hand around only couple people, mostly family and very close friends. I am a good guy, little lazy, but I can almost make anyone laugh, I have a good sense of humour. I realize all this, but I still can't fucking man up about it, I can't confront myself as my hand is and there is nothing I can do about it. I believe that this is also the main thing that stops me from getting countless lays, since I had so many chances that I've fucked up. But I keep learning, each time I don't succeed I feel like I'm getting closer and closer to the point of finding my better self. I used to make a big deal out of my hand, confronting a girl about it and making up stories, explaining, all the unnecessary stuff. I realize I shouldn't give any single fuck about it, I should just slide with it. Now I'm not even telling them anything unless they ask me myself when they notice or something. I can't say that my hand affects my daily life that much, there are just couple things I can't do, like pullups and deadlift. I don't have a proper grip. What I wanted to ask is, could women find my hand unattractive and because of that reject me? Without looking how confident I am about it and if I have accepted it as I am. Lets say I'm extremely confident about it and don't give a shit. As an idea of, in nature if there's an animal, that is born without a body part, the animal is probably gonna be cast away/dispelled, because he has less chances of surviving. Would like to hear any thoughts and advices from you.

TL;DR I was born without couple fingers on my hand. I still feel insecure about it. I have a feeling that it also affects my sexual life and interracting with woman.