I'm finding myself subconsciously getting back to my submissive beta self once in a while. It's depressing when that happens. I'm back to my old people pleaser self, spitting out random stuff that further devalue myself. And all that happens because it's been so long in that ugly beta shell that it feels like my most natural self.

Has anyone had the same struggle? How do I get over this? The closest thing I can think of is from Art of Manliness, Brett McCay was talking how we have to act like a man in order to become a man. How do I stop falling back to beta?