Idk if it’s cause I’m lacking sleep , started smoking cigarettes again but I’m starting to think I’m mentally ill and everyone notices but NO ONE says anything . I believe my thoughts can be heard , sometimes I even think that I’m saying my thoughts loud enough but my mouth is closed if that makes sense . I even think my phone is hacked to the point where my messages are being manipulated on social media and anything that requires a log in ..

This has been going on for 6 years already and I’m thinking everyone is against me . I ruin every possible relationship that comes up in my life and question every single thing a person does around me .

Idk wtf is going on ... I need help but I don’t think it’s fixable ... this is my only outlet ...