I’m dependent on validation from others for my sense of self worth.

Not even women, but from everybody.

The more respect people give me, the higher my self worth is. My entire sense of being is based on external validation/approval.

The more attention/validation/respect I get, the better I feel about myself. If I get none, I start thinking I’m a loser and enter a state of anxiety and self-doubt.

My conscious brain does not seem to have control over this. No matter how many times I tell myself to stop seeking validation I still do it all the time often without even realizing it.

I have become more self-aware about it due to daily meditation but the issue remains regardless.

This is just how it is.

How do I fix this?