Hi. I'm all fairly new to TRP. Was hoping for some advice from someone more well versed in the TRP frame of mind.

My story told poorly in english. So there's this girl that I've been friends with for 5 years or so. We have been just friends for the most part. I've liked her the last 2 years, but have failed to do anything about it because I've been a beta for too long. Last year we fucked, but due to both of us being wasted it was kind of awkward. We got over that and resumed our friendship.. There has been sexual tension between us for as long as I can remember, resulting in me always wondering if there could be something there. Anyways, just recently I was invited to my friends cabin, and found out she was going aswell. She's fun, so I figure it'll be a good time. Saturday when were all good and drunk and most of us are starting to head to bed, she invites me into her room to "snuggle". Turns out she's naked under the covers, and we fuck once more. This time the sex was awesome, contrary to last time. A min or so after, she gets off my dick and says "We did it again blablabla. I dont want to ruin our friendship."I'm left wondering wtf she wants from me, as she have initiated the sex both times and is always making an effort to flirt with me. Does she just want a orbiter who occasionally gets a reward, or is smth else? I was hoping to get input from you guys for any pointers or w/e in planning my next move. Alternatively get her out of my life. This thing we have going now isn't working for me all too well.

Any advice/constructive criticism is welcome !

EDIT: I'd say I'm still swallowing trp, but I'll keep at it. Ty for the input bros.