Still swallowing this pill. It's weird, but it's been helpful so far. My SMV is low at the moment, so I'm working on my confidence, assertiveness, and maintaining of frame at this time.

I went out last night to get hookah with friends. I've been riding real high this week: I got good grades in my summer classes, I had an awesome last day of clinicals (nursing student), and I just made good money for watching a neighbor's dog for two weeks. Nothing was killing my mood tonight. So I bring two of my buds to the local hookah joint, got some great shisha (lasted almost two hours), and just talked/chilled the whole time.

At one point, a blonde girl walks in. I can see her out of the corner of my eye, and I can hear her voice as she greets some patrons. She goes behind the counter and starts her shift working there. I was sketched out for a second. She broke my heart back in March when I was still really beta, and my oneitis created mad heartbreak for me. We had not seen nor spoken to each other since then. But here she is, out of nowhere, here, now. I started to feel uneasy, almost like I wanted to leave.

But then I snapped out of it. I told myself, "No, man. Don't be a little bitch. You're having a great time with your friends right now, you've got good hookah, good music, and that brunette over there keeps looking at you. Fuck leaving, you've earned this night and you're not gonna let some girl ruin it." So I stayed, and had a blast. Later on I was thinking, "Well, guess I'm never going back there again..." NO. I will go back there if I damn well please. I've been going there longer than she has. I will maintain frame and have a good time, no matter who is crossing my path.

The oneitis mindset is slowly disappearing. My frame is maintaining, and my thoughts have never been clearer. I like feeling this way.