At this period I am spinning 4 plates and slowly more get into the picture. This was a long search and I do not want to drop any of them for the time being. One of them is my Ex which I had very strong Oneitis for, however I managed and demoted her into a Plate. I do not inform anyone about the existence of other ones however I never say that we are exclusive. I do not only want sex from them, I like to do activities as Biking, Running, going out, etc, however, I constantly have anxiety when I am outside that we are going to bump into each others.

The city in which I live in is not very big and the meeting places are specific. As I get to know more potential plates I do not feel comfortable arranging to meet them outside as the possibility to bump into other plates is extremely high.

Yesterday I wanted to escalate with a new potential Plate but I did not feel comfortable at the bar to start touching her and it was very clear to me that she wanted that, all IOI were there. I did not have plans to sleep with her that night as I had another girl waiting for me in her house, and I could feel her disappointment. I did not kiss her goodbye I just left with a single good night, so she translated that as lack of interest by my side, as she told me today, but the fact is that I was afraid not to get caught by others.

I do not know how to manage this, I do not want to drop any as each one of them adds value to different part of my life. One of them could be an LTR material, but I do not want to go on that way yet.