Thank you …
At 38 years old I found myself accomplished with financial stability, a great company I built, a great family but I was unhealthy and had a very unsatisfying sex life. I am married 11 years, together 15 years. We have two children boy 4 and girl 7. My wife is really a great woman SAHM and since I discovered the red pill submissive in the bedroom as well. It is amazing to me how much she has changed along with me as I made my progress with red pill philosophy. I have followed the rules and NEVER talked about fight club. I can look in the mirror and see my improvements, but at the same time look at my wife and see how getting my shit together has improved our family unit completely. There is so much good that has come out of learning to literally fuck my wife the way I always wanted to.
The bad … Two years ago I was 6’1” 310 lbs and my doctor diagnosed me with type 2 diabetes. Not a shocker to me as I was a lazy fat ass who used food to cope with the stresses of building a business and the general stresses of raising two children. I had low points before and got put on Zoloft in my mid twenties and was a zombie for quite a while. No real highs no real lows just cruising in the middle. I thought the Zoloft helped with my anxiety but it destroyed my feelings for sex. My wife and I had sex maybe once every two weeks for most of our marriage. Just standard starfish as you call it. Early on when we were dating and she would be drunk she would say things like “I’m a bad girl”, but I just did not understand the whole submissive nature of my wife back then and I was a pussy for most of that part of my life.
The number one influence on my life with women was my mother. My father was a betabux pussy his whole life and my mother ran the house. Dad NEVER talked to me about women and has never to this day even broached the subject. My Mother instilled in me that providing for a woman got me what I wanted. Being the nice guy. Prince charming gets the girl. All that. What a wrong way to go about it.
So I am a lazy fat ass two years ago and I decide to get off Zoloft cold turkey and get in shape. I need to lose weight and get healthy or I am going to die and I can’t make money if I am dead. I used that logic. I pushed myself lost 20lbs and got injured. Self pity spiral and I go into July of 2017 and then I find the needle of red pill in the haystack of the internet that opened my eyes to a whole new me.
July 2017 … I had been of Zoloft for a year so I started to feel my dick again kind of LOL I also felt nerve tingling on the tip that the doctor said may be a side effect of diabetes. Neuropathy. That really got my attention. I took a couple days and really focused on myself and thinking how am I going to do this. I tried to step back and look at myself independently and what drove me to wake up every morning and work as hard as I do to provide for my family. It was eye opening. I basically rewarded myself with shitty food and porn. I have been addicted to jerking off to some form of porn since about 12. I started with the scrambled playboy channel and over the years learned all the internet tricks in my teen years to modern day porn hub. The problem for me was that I hit a wall with it. The porn was getting weird this past year. It was all step daughter, step mom, step whatever shit and it just freaked me the fuck out.
I know people are motivated by a reward/pleasure well my food was killing me and making me fat and my porn was going to turn me into a shameful pervert. I decided I was going to completely change my reward structure and use discipline that I knew I had but had never applied to my health and sex life. The rewards needed to be there and sex was going to be my reward if I was going to eliminate food and porn.
I googled “How to turn your wife into a slut” and found Hunter fuckin Drew “Creating your slut” Wow that was all I needed to launch me into red pill land, the side bar and I have not looked back. Lifting is the single most important thing is true. I STFU and set on making myself awesome and figured if it works the way they say I should be able to do it. In August 2017 I hired a lifting trainer two times a week (have not missed once) and started with just learning how to move my fat ass again. I progressed to lifting just the bar to almost a year later lifting with the 45lbs plates on the bench and repping out. I am now 257 lbs and have a lot more to go but I love feeling my muscular arms and legs and the TESTOTERONE it produces is awesome. I now have sex with my wife 3 to 4 times a week. It is awesome sex for me and her. I am cave manning and spanking her and talking dirty. At this point its just awesome to me. I just keep getting happier. Once a week or so I will tell her I need a blowjob and she will just get down on her knees and blow me. It still amazes me from where I was a year ago. I will end it how I started it. Thank you… to all the guys who have contributed to this wealth of knowledge that is the red pill. I really do appreciate it. There is still a long way to go but I am really enjoying it thus far.