I just came back home from a walk. I often go for some walks to think about the future, what i have to do next, what needs to be done, etc. Its just a habit i picked up while in college, to clear my head from the unneded bullshit and focus on the stuff i have to do. I realised something today, that was different from the usual process.

A little backstory. I pretty much fucked up with my decisiton about what to study when i came out of highschool. I was raised pretty bluepill, had no real mentor to guide me on the right path, i always though to myself, well something will come up eventually. I got my bachelor last year and nothing came out of it, no real job opportunity in my field, no real chances to take, so i decidet to go work on my master in the same field. I found the redpill last year december. 3 months into my master and started to read the sidebar, the posts, everything this subreddit has to offer. I slowly realised that this will not be the way i will be successful and happy in my life, that there will be no unicorn, that will magicly appear in front of me and love me forever and ever and that i wont be able to find a job, that i really will enjoy and make a fair amount of money.

For the last 3-4 months i started to apply the redpill ways into my life. I saw that its going to be necessary to go to the gym, that i need other hobbys than videogames and tv, i started to work at my social skills, all the redpill stuff that is important to feel good in your own skin. At first i was really thinking to myself "this is ridicoulous, i can do this my way", but i didnt give up. I had alot of struggle working out at first, i didnt find the time to work out, or i just rather played some games, but it got easier in the 2-3 month, when i first started to see some small results. I know now, i cant do it my way, the bluepill way if i want to be happy.

So, back to the walk i had today. Normaly on my walks, when i thought about the future, i had concerns what the future will bring, how will i find a girl, where will i get a job, how will a be able to make all the work for college in time if i always have so much homework and when should i find the time for everything else. It was just a stupid excuse for me being lazy and giving everything thats not important my priorities instead of focusing on the things that really matter. But today it was different. Probably for the first time, i wasnt afraid of the future. I was... i dont really know how i felt, it was... exiting. Yes, i felt exited about what the future will bring and its only because of the fact i got my shit together since i started to go the redpill way.

I realised that there will be no one holding my hand when the world will kick me in the face and the bills will stack, while some whale woman will sit on my couch screaming at me why i dont make more money, or why dont we marry already. Things will not just work out somehow, they will go the way i dont want them to go and it will make me miserable. So for this year, i put my master on pause. This can be done in my country and i can start the next year where i paused it, no idea if this is the same in every country. I singed up for a specialisation that will take me this 1 year, to become an electrician. With this i can start to work, ill use my bachelor in some other ways, i already have a plan. Electician is a searched job in my country, so it will be a great start into my working career. I already know when i finish this specialisation, the company i work part time for now every summer, will probably offer me a fulltime job, since i already work on all the fields that the fulltime workers, the only problem is, i dont have the right degree and they cant put me on a fulltime position. So this problem will be solved, after that i plan on doing a 2 year degree in mechanical engineering to even further expand my horizon of fields where i can apply for a fulltime job. So i got thing to look forward to. I accepted my misteakes i did in the past, the decisions that worked against me for now and make the best out of it. It even worked out much better, than i could even imagine and its all to the fact, i took thing in my own hands. I stoped listening to my lazy friends, telling me to enjoy while i can, i stoped whining about how hard i have it and that i dont have a clue where i will be in 2 3 years.

Well this part of my life is certaily over. Im not afraid of what tommorow will bring to me anymore, im looking forward to it. I know exactly where i want to be in 2 3 years, there are no more insecurities left in my head and its all to the fact, that i started to work on me the way that will benefit me the most and not the way thats the easiest. I cant undo the past, but i can change the future. And hell, am i going to kick the future's ass.

By the way, i finally got some girls rolling, they are not plates yet, but i see that the fact im raising my SMV and bettering myself everyday is seen by other people. Thats my motivation, thats why it was so hard for me to start all this, because i was not sure it will work, but as soon as you see results, its like a switch that goes on inside of your head and gives you confidence and the will to do more.

Thank you for all the good advice and for opening my eyes bros, i really appreciate it and will forever be thankfull.