Male therapist says I'm doing very well, bloodwork is all good, T levels are sitting around 850, exercising, eating well, still feel like I am tired all the time and existentially don't care/know anymore?

I can't rid myself of this feeling that I am grinding myself down for the next 30 years until retirement and then 25 years of aging decline until I die. I tried LSD, mushrooms, weed, acid, nothing helps me feel good.

I don't know what to do anymore