Well apparently I have mental issues (Lithromantic I think they call it) Its basically being attracted so bad with a hottie but once interest is reciprocated, you feel repulsed towards them subconciously and not see them as a hottie anymore. pump and dump is an option i think

I had 5 different women ended bc of this issue. I doubt I will ever change, so all i can ask is, is love really that amazing? I hope im not missing out too much since I will never be "inlove". Ive been depressed lately knowing ill never get to experience having an ltr and those type of fantasy.

I know i sounded like a pussy but it really sucks man.