Hey guys

I feel really shit right now. I discovered the red pill one and half years ago and it was massive wake up call. I was lucky to find it and started on my self improvement journey. I learnt about frame, game etc., read many self improvement books but keep find myself coming back to feeling shitty again.

I'm not living the life I want. I sit my room right now looking through social media and seeing everyone else from school going out to eat, party and shit while I stay home. I let shyness ruin my fucking life. I am much better now then I was last year but I cannot fully overcome it. I see guys at my school, how confident, witty and how much social proof they have, while I sit back in agony envying to be like them.

I'm frustrated. Someone please fucking slap me in the face and tell me what to do. Im turning 17 next month and going to finish my last year of high school this year. Im still beta, still shy, dont have many friends although I was much better than I was a year ago. Life's too short. I know the life I want but I can't get it.

What do I do.now. I had enough of living like this. Not living the life I want. I told myself this several times already but here am I feeling the same shit again while nothing changes.