As title says, I am always thinking about women. I will be doing the dishes or something and then out of nowhere, i start thinking about being on a night out, trying to talk to women, and having them pull that "fuck off" face at me and getting rejected, OR i imagine some guy or their boyfriend coming up to me and humiliating me. "Are you trying to smash these girls bro? haha!"

When i try to do something productive, i start to think "This is getting you laid, this won't help you learn how to speak to women."

Same with my career. I work a few shifts in a factory at the moment, but i have one exam left for accounting, and when i sit down to revise and study, i just think how shit it would feel if i tried flirting with a woman and she just laughed at me.

I envy men who are able to approach women on nights out and get them to like them.

These thoughts sometimes cripple me. I laid on my bed for like 30 minutes yesterday, just imagining all these hypothetical scenarios in my head. I will spend 3 hours a day looking at RSD and other infield PUA videos, trying to remember an answer to every question. I will feel incredibly bummed out if i have a good conversation with a woman, and she doesn't ask for my number or give CLEAR signs she likes me.

I know all of this sounds weird, but these are the exact thoughts that go through my head. One of my worst fears is being called boring by people i have just met.

I have read the side bar, and understand the theory behind TRP and the differences between men and women. Whenever i come up with a solution to a problem i have with how i behave around women, my mind seems to spawn 2 more problems from that.

I realise that improving my own self worth will indirectly help me attract women, but i get bitter that there a guys out there with no jobs and living on their friends couch that still manage to have some crazy confidence with women.

is the solution to keep doing things that give me mental toughness, or keep trying to learn game even though my inner game is dog shit?

i don't want my validation to come from women, but having only had sex with 6 women at the age of 27 (and all but 1 of them approached ME), i feel like half a man because i don't have the confidence to approach and get rejected.

What is the solution here? I'm willing to implement almost anything.