My boyfriend is usually very kind and loving BUT i get scary feelings. Yesterday we where drinking at his place, he was djing and then me made out. I saw someone complitelty diffrent. He still looket the same but the way he was, i was tripping out and felt as he was a mean person. I then dreamed about him being an asshole to me, that we talked on the phone and him making fun of me for being to emotional. Then he wanted to leave. But the thing is i saw (when i was drunk and in my dream) someone who's selfish, don't really love me, doesn't really care. He have said some cruel things when drunk but then apolegized the next day when I've brought it up, kinda like being cool infront of his friends.

Can someone help, he's an amazing person yet i dream and "see" someone else, i see a monster. Why is that?