I used to think I'm a man of worth but now I realize that I was being triumphant of achievements from the past which are no longer relevant.

Getting shot down date after date after date and so forth. I see a pattern I can't break: first I am introduced to a girl, then I wait 48h and invite for drinks, then try to kiss and get shot down and the cycle repeats.

I thought about giving my life some purpose, any purpose, by getting hobbies or interests but literally nothing makes me excited. Nothing even makes me a bit happy. I lost any joy and sense of interest I had. Can't help but feel like a waste of air. Completely zero sparks towards whatsoever. Caught myself blankly staring into the void for long minutes.

Do you know any small steps to take for a living, rotting shipwreck of a man? I feel like hanging down a tree.