I'm retarded. If I have a good conversation with a girl on three consecutive days I just fall in love with her.

I'm reading The Rational Male and I understand that there is no "one", but I get so little emotional connection with anyone (I just moved to a big city, I know no-one and I don't work). I've read a lot of TRP 4-5 years ago when I was in a relationship, but dear god my love life has been a mess since this girl broke up with me.

I have no friends and no desire to make any friends.I have no contact with girls, but I love and feel very good when I get to have a good conversation with one, so I start expecting to speak to her every day just like I did with my previous girlfriends.

I'm 22 and I'm acting like a fucking child (I have aspergers so that might worsen). I have no idea how to make this stop - I've read it might have something to do with me not getting any intimate affection AT ALL until age 17, but I don't want to do shit therapy to solve my child issues... I just want to stop feeling needy for a woman's affection. I'm at such a point where I'll do ANYTHING to make these feelings stop, including considering being drunk 24/7.

Please help, guys. This cycle of meeting a girl > liking her, having lots of conversation > we start distancing from each other (either I do that because I'm afraid of something or our friendship just fades away) > I feel horrible.

I know I'm retarded. I know I'm stupid and childish and imature. I just need help, I can't live this way any longer.