What causes social awkwardness and low states of inner happiness? Still feel the same on the inside after years of game.

This is really crazy to describe. I have so much social momentum going, my dating life is great, etc largely in thanks to learning game and internalizing redpill lessons. But deep down on the inside, I often get a glimpse of feeling like the same old guy. It almost makes me think that everything I've been learning is just running away from my default state of happiness and self love, as gay as it may sound.

What causes me to feel like this? Is learning redpill material, game and self improving simply enhancing your ego but not fixing your core? Or is it "trauma energy," as Julien from RSD would call it? Just some ideas I have, Id love to hear what you think or if you relate.