The more I read red pill theory about women the more I say "fuck thats me." I need a total overhaul of my way of thinking and I honestly dont know how to change, I think I might be narcisistic. Here is what I do.

-I'm obsessed with how I look and I feel attacked when I'm not the best looking guy in the environment.

-I always think for myself first, others' needs and feelings mean nothing to me if there is a conflict of interests.

-I branch swing like a motherfucker if there is a better girl. I always keep flirting with new prospects so I have a cushion to fall on if things dont go the way I want them to.

-I expect women to work for me, if they refuse, I start to neg and shit test like a bitch.

-I keep low value women around as "best friends", rant to them about my frustrations, take their advice, spend time with them if there isn't a better girl to be with, tease them but never have sex with them.

-I have a hamster, there is no situation I cant unconciously alter to make myself feel good. My faults become products of circumstances, if I fuck up and it turns out better somehow, thats what I wanted in the first place. If people break up or distance themselves they end up manipulative, worthless, clingy whatever.

-I change social circles a lot and rotate through old ones frequently ad long as they are still willing to take me back.

I am literally wired like a woman and I need some guidance to embrace a more masculine mindset.