Hi, I'm a newbie who's life changed after getting into listening to many episodes of of Patrice o Neal for the past few months. I appreciate you taking the time to read this post. I need some advice from the wise.

Recently I've been trying online dating apps again. In past I was a complete failure but I think I have now improved on my approach and I'm seeing the difference in results after being more straight forward and being less invested.

My question is about one particular girl with whom I'm a fuck ton more invested in than usual because she looks like the girl of my fucking dreams and has a personality that I actually truly enjoy and value, at least from what I have seen.

This is the situation: I have never met her before. To summarize, I sent her a dm on ig and I managed to hit it off with her. We joked, teased and flirted. She asked for a dick pic. I responded the next day and asked for a trade and she immediately sends me a disappearing video of her topless and posing for 2 seconds. I was new to the disappearing video thing and I asked for a longer one, and this was where I fucked up:

She sent a longer video and idiot horny me took screenshots. She was alerted (I didn't know that she'd know) and asked nicely for me to delete it, because she had been blackmailed before. (I believe it's true because she has disallowed comments). I said ok but got angry, and said that I would never dishonour our trust. I showed her my dick, she liked it but kept asking me to delete it. I got angry and insisted I wasn't a vengeful person, and had never crossed my mind to do such a foul thing and I wouldn't do it even if she fucks someone else or doesn't fuck me or anything like that. This went on for a few more back and forth replies between me getting angry about being thought of someone who would blackmail someone and her asking me politely to delete the photos and don't go off on a tangent. At the end of the day I sent her a screenshot of my gallery in an attempt to appease her. Then I asked for some nudes without her face shown.

The next day I realized that I had fucked up ethically for taking that screenshot. I apologised. She said appreciated the apology and said again that she hoped that I had truly deleted everything, and admitted that she was paranoid because of her past experience.

For rekindling her traumatic experience, she said that she had lost interest talking to me.

I appreciate her being forthright and respectful throughout the ordeal and understood the motivation for her paranoia. Most of all, I realised that it was I who had objectively failed ethically by taking a screenshot and then feeling indignant about her worrying about the risk of being blackmailed. So I apologised, asked for forgiveness, and stated similar things about what I have written here about my failure and how I appreciated how she remained respectful.

She reads the message but doesn't reply. Later I get a notification about an unsent gif. I noted the unsent gif and asked if we could have a voice chat. She sees the message quickly but doesn't reply.

And here is where I am left. I really fucking like this girl for both her looks and personality. Her paranoia was understandable especially given my response, for being more concerned about being thought of a malicious person.

I really don't want to lose her. I think what I should do is to just leave it, and give her time to hopefully come around to talking to me again.

What do you think? I appreciate your time and honesty, thank you very much.