I'm in such a rut right now. Broke up with LTR three months ago, got really sick and had to move back in with my parents after dropping out of this semester. All of my friends live in my old city. No social life and zero girls my age in my small town. My new job wont start for another two weeks. She is on my mind 24/7 and I just reached out again today to her, and she told me she has no interest in reconnecting. I literally cant get my brain to think about anything else. I drove 2 hours to fuck an old plate last week and couldnt even get it up.

First real relationship. I'm tormenting myself but I cant help it. I've tried everything to distract myself, but nothing works.