Note: I posted this before a little less than a day ago but unfortunately that post died, so this is a repost. The reason I'm doing this is that I seriously need some eye opening advice regarding what to do with the bizarre situation I'm in. This problem I have had bugged me for the entire day and while I don't want to post this over and over again like a maniac, it might be necessary for me to be able to come to conclusions on this matter.

After a long time of lurking in this platform my time has finally come to ask advice for a very personal situation. To give a quick background, I’m 17 yo, 187cm and 78kg, obviously not from the US. What I’m about to tell is a very personal story but I’m on a crossroads in life and in need of advice, and tbh I can't really share this with anyone else but the anonymous people on the internet.

So the thing is; I had a rough confrontation with my big bro a while ago, who is 33, nice build, alpha, cocky and intimidading but has no direction in life (Think of a neet that still games women with sheer charisma and experience, as odd as that sounds). We were having a conversation in the house as our parents are on vacation rn (He has his own house but he decided to drop by) and he kinda got on my nerves at one point so I told him to fuck off, expecting to end the convo. What he did was that he went batshit crazy and started physically and verbally threatening and throwing random objects while having a tantrum. I was scared but I tried to keep my calm though I probably looked like a pussy anyway. He’d fuck me up in a fight as he’s bigger, stronger and has more experience when it comes to fighting. He already had a reputation for being hotheaded so I guess I’m also at fault for awakening his tendencies.

Anyways after both sides seemingly cooled down I told him to leave as it was for the best. He didn’t flinch one bit and kept throwing insults and pushed me around. Although I was very angry as I felt very humiliated by his actions, I tried to sound as calm as possible; but I was actually trying to hide how pussed out I was since he’s pretty unpredictable with his actions. But I also saw a glimpse that he was trying to hold himself back, he most likely has severe anger issues and there is a high chance that he's mentally ill.

I'll give a little more background information regarding the two characters in play here, my bro is a natural alpha and has a mix of redpilled male competence and his bp manchild personality that led him to become a fit neet that slays pussy (trust me I'm not idolizing him or sucking his dick here, this is the most objective description I can come up with) as he was raised in an enviroment with healthy males, our father was in his prime and a good role model. I, on the other hand, am a total opposite as I was raised by women up until the age of 9 (father was working abroad) and ended up becoming a total sissy/bp autist that still suffers from it (That's how I became interested in trp at some point).

Sorry for the information dump, but I need to make sure that you get a clear picture of the situation and understand what I'm talking about. I tried to be as objective as possible regarding the whole thing so you don't get the idea that I'm trying to play the victim and looking for a pat in the back or shit like that. I need solid opinions and advice on what steps to take regarding this situation. I can't really cut him out of my life and snitching isn't an option so please try to give advice based on those two important points.