1. This will sound weird but I want to know the answer. Women's desire for me in their eyes turn me on. An amazing ass is attractive but that look is exponentially more attractive. When I'm fucking an escort, can I get this look during blowjob or penetration? Is it something you can get from an escort if you're not attractive? With the last escort, I avoided getting this look by avoiding looking at her eyes too long because I assumed I'm not attractive and she would or might be repulsed, which would kill my mood.

I'm fat and not experienced. That's why I say I'm not attractive. I'll keep having regular sex with escorts and regular girls when I can.

  1. New condom I'm using is tight and makes my dick stay swollen for half a day. Is this something I need to worry about? Couldn't find an answer on Google.

  2. With the last girl, I just wanted to lie there and hug her ass instead of fucking her. I wanted to spoon her for a bit. Can I do that kind of stuff? Is that called girlfriend experience? I feel like it is kinda pathetic to get that but it is the truth of what I want. Should I go for it or wait for a girl I seduce, not rent?

  3. I think my problem might be too much solitary physically, emotionally and socially. I always hide this stuff. I'm not sure if people can see it. Should I be showing this to people who can't use it against me? I find that if I'm naked, it makes me more realistic and drop the bullshit parts of who I am.

  4. If you have a plate, is she just an interactive 3d masturbation tool? Do you have feelings for her? If you do, how do you manage to develop feelings for a slut? If you don't, why do you have desire for a 3rd masturbation tool?

Update for my previous post: I found a better escort. She speaks English which is great. I got hard, fucked her in 3 positions, but didn't finish. Overall I enjoyed it. Great ass. I will visit her again, try other escorts and try cold approaching normal girls. I tried Tinder, no luck.