I here a lot about being alpha when it comes to women and I understand the idea of it but I’m not the idea if that makes sense.

I’m too self conscious about myself and my body language I’ll freeze up, I’ll cancel dates, I won’t escalate.

I wouldn’t say I’m unattractive as I’ve gotten plenty of good looking matches and can easily get numbers on tinder and what not but the actual date is where I drop frame. I haven’t been on too many dates and I’ve had even less sex (5) total in my life) where it’s been total ass (2 pump) enough to get ghosted afterwards.

I definitely didn’t grow up attractive and I’m sort of in the mindset of being that high schooler that got ignored and didn’t have a prominent social status and social life.

The way it contradicts is that on tinder it’s smooth on texts and I look attractive which has led someone women to believe that I’d pound the ecstasy out of em but in the end i just fall flat.

It all comes down to confidence which I don’t have any