I really can't be bothered to go too much in to detail at the moment, but I will say briefly that for the past 7-8 months, I've been slowly rolling downhill. Around about February this year, I hit a peak after studying and practicing RP theory for ages. I've always been able to get women, but struggled with a lot of anxiety as well, and RP helped me to hone who I am.

I've always physically been in great shape, without ever having to try too much, but I enjoyed exercising regardless. Not an ugly dude in any sense. Always had a great sense of humour throughout my life, and that aided me with RP philosophy too, but it's disappearing now. Flirting, online was easier at first but I was very good at it when I relaxed into myself, and then I started to own it in later years.

I have just gone downhill since February. Yes, some events happened and I suspect I am going through a depression, and yeah, I've let it happen. I accept I am responsible for letting shit slip, and I probably have the answers as well to remedy this, but for the life of me, my mind is now so fucking wrought with anxiety, self doubt, over analysis of literally everything, that I started isolating myself, and I'm losing my physique, and as a result: my sex drive - or any kind of drive for that matter, and a whole host of other things such as diet and sleep are messed up too. Oh, and a gaming addiction to escape my problems. This has been consistent now for months and months, gradually getting worse.

I don't know how to get out of this rutt, and every time I make an attempt, either anxiety says "NAH, FUCK YOU, PUSSY", or I simply lack the motivation. I think I can actually see the answers as I type this, but I need someone who isn't gonna molly cuddle me, and someone who'll tell me to grow a fucking pair; that, and I need some objective perspective. I bow to your wisdom, dudes.